Lost them BOTH - DEVASTATED!!!?

A few months ago I lost one of my twins in utero and I was quite devastated but the only hope that kept me alive was the urance that twin two was still alive. Sadly on 28 August at 18 weeks I lost the remaining twin. I have been so devastated and lost in my thoughts-it has been very hard for me to stomach. I don't know what will make me come to terms with this misfortune...